sometimes i just want to run away and create a world
just to daydream and write about, maybe draw if i practiced enough
about a life that won't happen, in a world thats too cruel

embrace the delusions, and leave it all behind.
become someone else. its too bland in this world, even with everything going on
its still the same thing, over and over, just different now

im pretty sure these thoughts are not something that a sane person would think.
i feel like im losing more and more each day. oh, maybe the sleep deprivation might be a reason for this today too, haha

i know its bad and wrong to be thinking these thoughts and its not healthy but i cant stop
sometimes i just want a meaning. i've been digging into the tsuki project, it's fascinating
if only i was there.
i know its wrong

i'm really fucked up